16th october, Thursday:
I think being in my course is really scary. You really don’t know how scared, worried stressed you can get till the point that you can proclaim that it is the scariest exam ever.
I remember doing it quite a few times in the past. The anatomy in year 1, another anatomy in year 2, the pathology in year 3. Especially the last 2 when an enormous, gigantic, load of information is cramped into us as the lecturers are given a scope to cover within the ridiculously limited short no. of hours. They will often tell us how crazy is our schedule and we, on the student end of things, feel even more terrible and demoralized. Then we will be memorizing, some memorizing better than others till the point that we are numb to the thing we are memorizing and our brain just won’t cooperate to make things more difficult.
It’s the same now. History only seems to repeat itself and only gets worse and never better. The text was meant to be covered over 3 months but we are to be done n exmined in 1 month, not to mention to obvious language barrier that everything is in Chinese, all the terminologies. The teachers also complain we have too little time and complain we don’t absorb fast even or don’t revise fast enough. Well, even the teachers teach till the point that their throat is pain, moreover us who are listening and trying to absorb the information as our own. Sad….
I think I am so going to be screwed tomorrow. It really feels terrible to be in such a state and I don’t think it’s funny to say you deserve it. So tempted to just throw in the towel and just try and if not just take the paper again but that would be a waste of the effort that you put in this time round. But the effort put in this time doesn’t seem to be yielding much. Is there something wrong with the equation this time? I lost in the” vexed-ness” of things.
Fortunately and it’s a real blessing to know there is a God that I can rely on…
I think being in my course is really scary. You really don’t know how scared, worried stressed you can get till the point that you can proclaim that it is the scariest exam ever.
I remember doing it quite a few times in the past. The anatomy in year 1, another anatomy in year 2, the pathology in year 3. Especially the last 2 when an enormous, gigantic, load of information is cramped into us as the lecturers are given a scope to cover within the ridiculously limited short no. of hours. They will often tell us how crazy is our schedule and we, on the student end of things, feel even more terrible and demoralized. Then we will be memorizing, some memorizing better than others till the point that we are numb to the thing we are memorizing and our brain just won’t cooperate to make things more difficult.
It’s the same now. History only seems to repeat itself and only gets worse and never better. The text was meant to be covered over 3 months but we are to be done n exmined in 1 month, not to mention to obvious language barrier that everything is in Chinese, all the terminologies. The teachers also complain we have too little time and complain we don’t absorb fast even or don’t revise fast enough. Well, even the teachers teach till the point that their throat is pain, moreover us who are listening and trying to absorb the information as our own. Sad….
I think I am so going to be screwed tomorrow. It really feels terrible to be in such a state and I don’t think it’s funny to say you deserve it. So tempted to just throw in the towel and just try and if not just take the paper again but that would be a waste of the effort that you put in this time round. But the effort put in this time doesn’t seem to be yielding much. Is there something wrong with the equation this time? I lost in the” vexed-ness” of things.
Fortunately and it’s a real blessing to know there is a God that I can rely on…
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